towel burning [04 Sep 2008|11:42am] thatbandgay the gop convention was boring as hell last night. i have to say that palin gave a good speech, but that doesn't necessarily mean shit. and i'm not sure her facts were very accurate. yeah, we already know you put the jet on ebay. the night before was pure entertainment, imo. it's great water cooler talk. lieberman's face looks like a coin purse. i'm an independent. no side can have me. i had to mute it when they were counting delegate votes. i kinda like ron paul (refrain from negative comment plz.) i look forward to these next two months. i've been staying busy and productive. i've been very crafty! i'm getting the help i need and my head is getting clearer by the day. my cousins are in town from mexico and staying with me until friday. i think ben is going to come in town on saturday and we are going to go to the rangers game, hang with the jerks. my date was reschedged to next week because of all the hurricane rigmarole (he is out of town). why do i feel guilty for going on a date with someone else? i shouldn't. i don't. 2 comments|post comment

[02 Sep 2008|09:32pm] thatbandgay i'm grieving the loss of my relationship and it's one of the hardest things i've ever gone through. it's taken me this long because i've been too stoned and high on pills to deal. well, the drugs got old and i woke up. i thought love doesn't just turn itself on and off, but i was wrong. maybe i was never loved. it sure feels that way now. regardless it totally fucking sucks and every little thing reminds me of him. it's so easy to forget the bad and remember the good. i can't help but blame myself for all the shitty things that happened. i know it is in the past and i shouldn't dwell on it, but it's fucking hard. i really loved the guy. i can't stop crying and feeling hopeless. but i know better. i know that i will move on and things will be fine. i am getting help for my anger/rage/abuse problem. i may be headed back to good ol' arizona. my parents are arguing over what would be best. i just want to be done with the pitty party. i refuse to ruin another relationship. tomorrow is my first post break-up date with a guy i've had a crush on for a long while. i'm just afraid i'm too sad to give it a chance. i'd be a fool not to. i can't believe he likes me. the good thing is that he already knows about everything i am going through and still wants to take me out; so if i start crying during dinner, i wont feel like a total retard. and because my posts shouldn't be all depressing and self absorbed: my best friend is a 45 year old bear. i'm not kidding. 8 comments|post comment

results: [02 Sep 2008|09:25pm] stab_everyone [ mood | satisfied ] [ music | ALL FOLK ALL THE TIME ] DEAN'S LIST BOOYAH [ who says booyah anymore anyway. ] so i might be 9,500 richer in a few weeks. thank you student loans, i look forward to you ruining my life after i graduate. --- i srsly spent all day cleaning the house. i know i'm on break, i just don't know what to do with all my spare time. i have absolutely no money and nothing to paint on. i'm at the point where i'm about to start dumpster diving for anything, ANYTHING TO PAINT ON. desperate over here. BUT THE HOUSE IS CLEAN SO that is cool. and now, pik chures ( just for you ) 7 comments|post comment

[02 Sep 2008|03:45pm] laberinto sometimes I am so overwhelmed I don't know where to go. who to talk to. am I alone? no but for some reason I feel like I am. I need somewhere to run to. 9 comments|post comment

[01 Sep 2008|06:59pm] blackmoth It spins to rid itself of the language we attempt to stitch into its skin, to loosen the wrapper and send it flying into space. Heaven is up, and up is "out there" - the glittering ruins of all our failed attempts at renegotiation. And yet we still attempt to pin it down, each moment it reaches a new spot on the axis, hoping that it will stick long enough to make a revolution. post comment

That rhymed. How amusing. [31 Aug 2008|09:51pm] vectors [mpschuster] post comment

You can't run away from your own head [30 Aug 2008|08:08pm] vectors [mpschuster] Finished this up a little while ago, but I've been too busy to post much. Started a new job two weeks ago, and I'm having a blast. 2 comments|post comment

it's kinda like that willie nelson song. [30 Aug 2008|07:00pm] thatbandgay today i had an epiphany. i have finally fucking realized the error of my ways. as compassionate and loving as i am, i have an intense habit of abusing the ones i love most. over the past few months i have completely lost sight of what is truly important in my life. i've put my job over everything else. i've taken my inner anger out on those closest to me. and for what? i lost my best friend. i lost someone i loved as much as my own family. i am full of regret. now i can only look to change my ways and move forward to being a better person. the past is the past. this is painful as fuck. 2 comments|post comment

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The Weekly X-post [29 Aug 2008|02:20am] vectors [ninjaguydan] ( This Weeks stuff ) post comment

Happy Labor Day and Anniversary of the I Have a Dream Speech! [28 Aug 2008|09:08pm] laberinto [ mood | excited ] [ music | M.I.A. - Paper Planes and the Democratic Convention Hoopla ] Hello LJ-land, Long time no talky. Life has been busy as usual. I am working on a website for a cool little shop in San Francisco, Miss Penny came to visit and i have been an insomniac. Things are getting back to somewhat normal but I have been pretty depressed off and on and have felt very lonely and alienated. Its a long story really and I will whine about it in a later post. For now I am going to be happy because I am happy at the moment. :) Up there is my current postcard I did for Aurora. If you want one email me your addy and I will mail you one!! Also, our beloved friends Ellen and Dan ran across this new painting from the hilariously talented Brandon Bird. Be Scott for Halloween (Philip Seymour Hoffman is his twin.. hot) !!!! XOXO Marisa 2 comments|post comment

[27 Aug 2008|10:29pm] blackmoth NOW IS THE TRUE TEST WHERE DOES IT LIE post comment

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[23 Aug 2008|06:30pm] blackmoth by critiquing it you glorify it 1 comment|post comment

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